Endless Blind Passions

By Gareth Sirotnik

Will love conquer lies? In the settling dust of 9/11, a gay Zen Buddhist Jew faces up to the duplicity in his and his lovers’ lives. Honest and erotic, Endless Blind Passions is a fiction about an all-too-real world that’s going berserk.

Lusting after life—and cute guys—the self-absorbed yet charming Monty encounters one deceit after another, especially his own. Until he meets Jamal, an Afghan refugee: beautiful and brilliant, and rock-solid real, with bewitching blue-green eyes.

At last everything seems to click. Until it doesn’t. Hours after the 9/11 terror attack, the FBI swoops into Monty’s Seattle houseboat, hunting for Jamal, who never came to bed last night. Unhinged, Monty tumbles into fifty years of memories, from his early fears of death to his sexual awakening, and from life-altering encounters with Zen and peyote to dark secrets about a murder, a suicide, and a double life—until the past catches up with the present and all the masks are dropped.

A saga of America circa 1950–2001 in the guise of a gay romance and a 9/11 intrigue, Endless Blind Passions portrays the search for love and spiritual awakening in a nation run amok, with nightmarish visions of an approaching dystopia.

Paperback, 352 pages
Published by Capsicum Press (Jul 2025)
ISBN-13: 9781069366504
Dimensions: 13.97 x 2.24 x 21.59 cm